黄楝

[黄楝诗选]

Loneliness

黄楝 原诗 黄楝 英译

The night-scene is wine

held in the glass of loneliness

U quaff with bravado

though a little listless

U r always talking like all the drunkards

saying: E'm not drunk ye...... t

with a mood indescribable and not expressible

roam rove ramble unfettered and detached

Neon signs r too beautiful to mean anything

'n then they become much more beautiful

The pedestrians' eyes r as slippery

as the fishes in the springs

that U can catch not with your best efforts

like the singing sound from all directions

loneliness is sometimes misty and sometimes floody

besieging your heart

There r sacredness and mystery and awesomeness'

vaporized from the chorus of the gospel singers in a church

Loneliness is then the work

of a serious and stiff philosopher

stuffing your mind with mottled thoughts

'n it is the serpent in Eden

seducing U to contemplation or wild fancies

form an invisible wall between U

and the crowd U r in

The faces bursting into our sights

r so deprived of any expressions

that this one is quite similar to that one

U act as if U don't care

That's because U have too much to care about

So U can hardly bear to care

U feel lonely 'cause U need

a great deal of friendship and love

U feel lonely 'cause U have the habit of feeling that way

That's why I asked for your excusing me

for my writing the word loneliness so repeatedly

I'm talking about loneliness that's the reason

Actually it resembles the air

the more overflowing and ubiquitous it may occur

the fewer possibilities for U to feel

It's something that exists

It's crucial if U have the habit

'cause habits r like shadows

which r not easily spotted unless

U deliberately stand under strong light

This truth is simple, yeah

'n many things r equally simple

Let's pick up the world for example

When U r familiar with the phenomena

in the world U'll have the idea that it's as simple as naught

'n of course the world won't thus vanish

But your so-called vacillation and melancholy

solitude and agony

will certainly va-ni-sh

Relishlessness is one relish of life

if you gladly take a careful taste

Probably it tastes better than relish

Don't assume U r cheating yourself

If U get a discounted fathom

U'll understand that U r just

cheating life itself

U smile

'n pose yourself like a venerable elder

'n say don't in such a wild way contemplate

'n a poem shouldn't be written too long

so I put down my pen 'n then close the curtain of my eyes

sink my eyebrow to relaxation

sit erect in meditation

get ushered in Dhyana

'n start again to sense the void

BECAUSE

whatever life is or is not

it needs to be unfettered and detached